hello everyone! havent made an entry in a while...well im like kinda depressed...like i have been all week... so yea...i have a class thats not making anything any better either...we're talking about suicide prevention n-shit...so yea...the wont stop talking about people killing themselves...and how chemical depression runds in blood lines...you see that brings up alot of shit for me...because major depression runs in my family...my uncle hung himself from a fucking tree, and my parents lied to me and told me that he died in a motorcycle accident...so yea, that sucks...and just last week my aunt slit her throat...so im guessing that u can understand why id be really depressed...and some other shit, but im not getting into that...dude...depression sucks...i used to be like really crazy and cut the hell out of myself...but i regret doing that, its the truth that it numbs the pain...but the scars have never left me...lol, so yea, now i just express myself in my poetry and songs...and drawings, but i cant post those yet....lol, well just writing this makes me feel better...i like to talk about this kinda stuff...and sometimes ill just go on and on to my wondeful kristine...lol shes great ...well im going to go do something to keep my mind off things...drum...lol and by teh way, i posted a pic of my new kit! its awesome!! well some comments are always great to hear...lol so yea, buh bye!